five? really?

"They placed you in our arms and all our dreams came true"


Five years ago at this exact same time I was in the hospital waiting for my baby to be born. I didn't know that he was going to be a he and I honestly didn't really even know that if he were a he, he would be a Lucas. Just thinking about those two days that I was in hospital prior to his birth so many feelings re-emerge. For my "focal" point to use while I was pushing I had brought a picture of my niece and nephew, I remember being so upset that I wasn't going to be able to see my niece the next day. I actually remember crying about not being able to see her.

I was so scared and at one point actually remember saying "why did I get pregnant?" The answer to that question quickly became clear, well maybe not quickly but when my little man made his way into this world all fears, questions, everything washed away. Seeing his little face for the first time (even though it was from a picture) was the most happy time in my life. I had never felt so much love for one single thing EVER!!! Having my little man was the most awesome experience ever, even with all the problems I wouldn't take back one single thing.

And now, how is possible that my little man is now turning five? How is it possible that my little man is going to be starting preschool in the fall? How is it possible that that love that I first felt for him grows stronger everyday?

I love my kids more than anything in this world, I truely cannot believe that my "little man" is going to be FIVE!!! I really can't, however he is and I am so proud of the "little man" that he's grown into. I can only imagine how much prouder he will make me over the years!!

A little bigger...

It's been a while...

Man it's been a while since I've last blogged, I actually thought a couple times about giving up on it but decided against it, I mean really how hard is it to drop a couple lines once in a while?!?

So things have been going pretty well lately, Christmas was great, New Years was kinda crappy, oh well, next year we'll make up for it!!!

The Bears are on their way to the Superbowl, which makes everyone in my family happy, WE LOVE THE BEARS! Watched the game yesterday at my sister's, it was fun. My mom made lasagne (my favorite) and we drank some beers and watched a not so fun game. It was way too close for comfort. In the end they won and that's all that matters!!!

I guess I should tell everyone about my bday, it kicked major butt. A golden retriever, a laptop and a surprise party, my family and friends are amazing. I also got an assortment of other things and I love them all, I really do have kick ass people in my life!!! My golden retreiver's name is Moose, actually his full name is Muhsin Wide Retriever, named after a wide reciever for the Chicago Bears (told ya we liked them). He's a great puppy and as soon as I can get him to stop peeing on my floor I will be even more happy with him, lol. Oh well, I guess that's what we get with a puppy.

It snowed again lastnight & today for the first time since my last post, I'm super excited to take the kids out in it after my niece gets back from school, they are so excited too.

I can't really think of anything else to write so I'll be off, hopefully my next blog won't we too far away, I really wanna keep up on this thing.